The words freeze throat as you speak. Tears gather at the pain. But you force them out and hope they will take with them the torment you feel.
Words gather, and your stomach clenches around them. Tries. It tries to contain them. To keep the darkness from being released. From corrupting the life it touches once released into the air.
But neither do you want them inside you, festering, rotting you from within.
You scream, torn, agonized, the decision waiting with a smile as cruel as the words you have formed.
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Being sick has completely thrown me off course. I missed my usual Wednesday post, and I’ve barely been active the past few days. I apologize if I was late in replying to your messages. And if I missed it completely, I’m deeply sorry! I do my best to reply to each and every one of your comments! I appreciate the time you took to share your words!
This is very beautiful. I am sorry you have not been well. You have my prayers dear for good health in body, mind, and soul.
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Thank you! I am so grateful for your support!
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Interesting juxtaposition-The concept of wanting the bile, the awfulness inside to be expelled placed along side the last sentence where cruelty comes into play.
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Thank you! =]
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Hope you feel better and no reply needed on my part when I comment as long as I am able to share my like to your wonderful writing. Thank You
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Thank you! I’m happy that you enjoy reading my pieces!
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Its remarkable to see how a choice; a simple, right or left decision, can literally change our lives for eternity. I often find myself wondering what story my life would tell if I had just decided to walk across the street rather than continue up the sidewalk. Or perhaps, what if my parents, in their youth, had waited just another day to conceive? Who would I, or they, or anyone around us be today if something so simple had just waited until a different hour? Alas each choice tells its own poetry and prose, and it is our duty as humans, regardless of affiliation, to grasp at the fabrics and weave our own tapestries from its silks. This writing was wonderful, and I appreciate the pleasure of reading it 🙂
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I’m so glad you enjoyed it! I agree! it really is amazing how choices made really do affect so much. Even if we don’t realize it when we do make that choice.
Cheers!
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fell better very soon
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Thank you!
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Take care of yourself and speedily recovery….
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Thank you! 😀
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I hope you get well soon, my friend. You brighten the world with your gifts.
Russ
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Thanks, Russ! Your comment brought a smile to my face!
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Get to feeling better. Post when you are feeling more like yourself. Hope you get to feeling 110% soon!
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Thank you! I’ll make sure I rest up before I get back to posting regularly =].
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Wonderful piece. Hope you feel better soon. It’s hard to post when you’re feeling physically miserable.
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Thank you! Yeah, it is unfortunately hard to maintain a proper schedule when all I want to do is crawl back into bed and sleep for a week.
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Get well soon – really lovely post and thanks for liking my poems 🙂
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Thank you! And it was my pleasure to read your writing! 😀
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Your welcome and yours too! 🙂
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Get well soon my friend.
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Thank you! =] I’ll rest up lots!
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…and we all appreciate the time you take to share your words…and world. Lot of different feelings here (or similar feelings coming from differing sources), but I really relate to them. Thank you for posting it.
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It’s my pleasure to share my words with you all! I’m always happy to hear when you can relate to my writing. Shared experiences are what bring people together!
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Huh. You nailed the exact feel of having something that you need to say but, for whatever reason, can’t get it out into the air where it needs to be. Powerful for being so short, and more than a little sad. Hope you’re feeling well soon.
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Thank you!
Yeah, there’s always that inner struggle to decide what to keep in, and what to let out.
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I’m such a fan of your work
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Thank you so much! I’m so happy to hear that you enjoy my writing! I hope you continue to do so! And I’ll be sure to read yours as well!
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Your very welcome!,,
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So sorry you’ve been unwell.
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I’m feeling much better now. Thank you! =]
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That’s good 🙂
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actually, as paradoxical as it is, pain is the false compass that ultimately leads us to true north!…acceptance of suffering builds the bridge of compassion from my genetatio to yours…”the deeper your love the deeper your compassion” -dafree whitewolfe
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It definitely helps create an understanding and empathy. Cheers!
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I see in this piece an uncontrollable urge to strike back at one who has hurt you with their own words, a need to hurl back what one has been hit with. It’s hard to take and take cruelness and not give it back. And when you finally have had enough, it feels good in a bad way to inflict hurt on one who has hurt you so much.
Been there, done that.
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Absolutely! It’s so hard not to hit back.
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And am also so sorry you’re ill. Get well soon.
Kathy
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Thanks! I’m feeling much better now 😀
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You’re a wonderful writer. Hope you’re okay now?
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Thank you! I’m feeling much better now :D.
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I’m so glad I found this blog. Your writing is beautiful. 🙂
`Jae
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Thank you so much! I’m so glad you enjoy my writing! Thank you for reading =].
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