Balance, I have found, is one of the hardest things to maintain in life.
On one hand, but on the other. How do I find a good medium?
Though I don’t think about it very often, and perhaps compared to others it’s not as bad, but I am a rather work-driven person.
The idea of having not working is so foreign that I cannot even consider it. When I came back from Korea, I immediately started teaching after only one and a half days. Never mind jetlag, never mind vacation. I had to work.
I want to work more on my writing, but how can I not teach as many hours as possible during the week?
So I fill my hours with teaching, and the rest with writing, and the next thing I know I’m exhausted and haven’t taken a break in weeks.
I love writing. It’s a huge passion. And I love teaching, too. But they’re work, no matter what I might think otherwise. And yet if I’m not teaching, then I should be writing. if I’m not writing during my free time, I’m wasting precious hours. I’m slacking off.
So where do I find a balance?
I’m still searching for it.
It’s all a state of mind, for me. I have to remember that I need breaks, too. I can’t work nonstop, even if I enjoy it. The exhaustion is crippling and unhealthy.
I’m working on it.